Since Heather has gotten completely out of social media, she has used my platforms to get her "fix" so I decided that I should post something to keep my hand in.
I'm not sure how getting rid of the internet will work out. I'm hoping to keep it in the "other" room - basically storage for stuff we want out of sight. I'll need to clean the room out [something I've talked about since I moved in with Heather] so I can actually sit at the desk and work on my laptop. I'm also hoping that we can continue to use Netflix (I'm sort of hooked on it), but since we're getting cable again, we won't need HuluPlus.
I feel really bad about not understanding Heather's problem with social media. The deeper she got into her holiday depression and the more she looked into getting something going to earn money, the further apart we drifted. Because she lives so much in her head, not really sharing that with me, I'm going to have to be more inquisitive about what's going on inside. I want to get a better routine set up, everything from meals and exercise to sleep patterns and intellectual stimulation. We both could use the support a good routine can supply, but I know she would really benefit from it.
My love is up and so we will go visiting friends!
Sunday, December 28, 2014
Friday, December 26, 2014
Tax the Internet
Hi, it's me Heather. I asked Barbara if I could write something on her Blogger page and she said yes I could as long as I identify myself .
I am terribly embarassed and ashamed of myself at the moment. It is not an unfamiliar feeling. I understood that social media was dangerous, I had no idea how dangerous it would feel to me personally or how dangerous I could become to other people.I have spent most of my adult life trying to be less dangerous and more successful.Every moment that I have almost become ready to try again I get pulled up short by a serious error on my part or on someone elses. And the humiliation that comes with the repeated failures has built up over time. I am bitter. I resent other people's success, especially people in my generation who have figured out how to sell themselves and their character to win at politics.
Barbara has agreed, grudgingly, to pull the internet from the house. I have been asking for that to happen for at least 6 months. Before we got married I didn't want internet in my house. I view it as an intrusion, not unlike any media purveyor.I am comfortable with cable television, I understand how to control it. Unfortunately, it is not the same with so-called social media. My experience with people who are extremely interested in extra marital relationships was frightening. These people were every where I turned on the internet, it seemed to me.
When Google came to town and ripped my community off so clearly, I figured the powers that be had collaborated with a major fortune 500 company to screw a small geographic area to benefit a larger population further away. Further west of here it becomes more populated with all kinds of quick buck characters. Then when you go past Portland towards the coast you run into a slightly moldy version of what I deal with every day. The concentrated population in the metro area has caused this problem and now they are going to have to clean it up and pay the piper.
Taxes are going to go up. Way way up. From what I have seen, personal internet sexual services are the #1 service sold. Well then tax it! Regulate it! This shit aint free. And neither are the people who get harmed.
My point is the internet is harmful, social media sites exists to sell Ashley Madison ads and everyone should stay off twitter.
The president needs to stop doing what his advisors tell him and start listening to his wife's advice. I would of voted for Michelle Obama in a second. Betrayal would be the correct term I feel for every single Democrat who serves in local state or federal politics. I will not vote for Hillary Clinton, no one in my family will. Although my Dad thinks that decision has already been made. We are all big fans of Elizabeth Warren.
No worries here, we made it. I will struggle on, quietly, trying to not hurt people or myself anymore. The coming year is going to have a slight economic improvement but it will not shake down to the level where I or most of the people I actually know live. The press and general media will become pre occupied with improvement and progress but I assure you very little will change for us. We will not go hungry or homeless, just stuck on the margins and feeling increasingly threatened. Not by other real people mind you, the notion that the powers that be don't even know we are here, that we don't exist.
I am terribly embarassed and ashamed of myself at the moment. It is not an unfamiliar feeling. I understood that social media was dangerous, I had no idea how dangerous it would feel to me personally or how dangerous I could become to other people.I have spent most of my adult life trying to be less dangerous and more successful.Every moment that I have almost become ready to try again I get pulled up short by a serious error on my part or on someone elses. And the humiliation that comes with the repeated failures has built up over time. I am bitter. I resent other people's success, especially people in my generation who have figured out how to sell themselves and their character to win at politics.
Barbara has agreed, grudgingly, to pull the internet from the house. I have been asking for that to happen for at least 6 months. Before we got married I didn't want internet in my house. I view it as an intrusion, not unlike any media purveyor.I am comfortable with cable television, I understand how to control it. Unfortunately, it is not the same with so-called social media. My experience with people who are extremely interested in extra marital relationships was frightening. These people were every where I turned on the internet, it seemed to me.
When Google came to town and ripped my community off so clearly, I figured the powers that be had collaborated with a major fortune 500 company to screw a small geographic area to benefit a larger population further away. Further west of here it becomes more populated with all kinds of quick buck characters. Then when you go past Portland towards the coast you run into a slightly moldy version of what I deal with every day. The concentrated population in the metro area has caused this problem and now they are going to have to clean it up and pay the piper.
Taxes are going to go up. Way way up. From what I have seen, personal internet sexual services are the #1 service sold. Well then tax it! Regulate it! This shit aint free. And neither are the people who get harmed.
My point is the internet is harmful, social media sites exists to sell Ashley Madison ads and everyone should stay off twitter.
The president needs to stop doing what his advisors tell him and start listening to his wife's advice. I would of voted for Michelle Obama in a second. Betrayal would be the correct term I feel for every single Democrat who serves in local state or federal politics. I will not vote for Hillary Clinton, no one in my family will. Although my Dad thinks that decision has already been made. We are all big fans of Elizabeth Warren.
No worries here, we made it. I will struggle on, quietly, trying to not hurt people or myself anymore. The coming year is going to have a slight economic improvement but it will not shake down to the level where I or most of the people I actually know live. The press and general media will become pre occupied with improvement and progress but I assure you very little will change for us. We will not go hungry or homeless, just stuck on the margins and feeling increasingly threatened. Not by other real people mind you, the notion that the powers that be don't even know we are here, that we don't exist.
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